Today at Let The Words Flow I posted an article that was very hard to write, because it involved being very honest with myself, then displaying that honesty to the world.
Yes, it’s true… today is my birthday. Today I am 21. :-)
Sarah pretty much changed my life when she contacted me back in October and asked me to be a founding member of LTWF. That group evolved my concept of the publishing industry and of writing culture itself. But there’s another person who changed my life more.
Even though he wouldn’t be with me today, Chris changed me into someone who’s confident, mature, and professional. Because of him I got a job at my current company, began agent-hunting, and eventually moved out and bought a house. Because he loved me I learned how to truly love myself. And even though the love between us is over (and, I fear, the friendship), the respect I gained for myself has remained.
As I say in the article, 21 marks a turning point for me. I feel like I’ve come into my own. Now that I have a legal license to venture into all parts of the world I actually feel ready to do so. And no one can take this type of awakening from me, even if they leave me, even if they hurt me.
It’s been rough. I’ve been sick. All I want to do now is fly to California, hang out with my writer friends, and forget all of this nonsense. But I think I’ve passed through the worst of it. Tonight, driving back from my parents house where we had Chinese food, watched a movie, and I forbade them from singing to me, I felt oddly uplifted. Like I can see the sun on the other side. Or maybe I’m just anticipating Santa Barbara ;-)
In any case, thank you to everyone for your kind birthday wishes. You all really made this day special <3