The Boomerang Keeps Going Around

Oh, livejournal friends. It’s really over.

Lately a friend gave me her manuscript to read, and I swear it could be published as-is and be a best-seller. Her main character is so strong; she battles and goes into the unknown and faces Hell itself.

We all like to think we’re brave, but when you’re faced with a real situation, how will you act? In times of danger I don’t know what to say. Once when I thought a friend and I had stumbled upon a murdered victim, all I wanted to do was get away and not tell anyone (it turned out to be an elaborate prank). I remember thinking afterwards, ‘I thought I was braver than that.’

I ride roller coasters. When I was a kid I always volunteered to hold the snakes of the visiting animal experts. There’s a hole in a wall in the amphibian house in the zoo I grew up by, and I always stuck my hand deep inside it. I dove of the high diving board (it hurt). I rode the front of the raft over rapids in Tennessee (riding the bull).

Being a dare-devil isn’t hard for me (though none of that stuff above is super extreme), because that involves being brave. Bravery is doing something dangerous or hard and not caring.

Courage is doing something where you know full well how hard it will be, and it terrifies you, but you do it anyway, because it’s the right thing.

I am brave. I do not yet know if I am courageous. Courage is much harder. Courage means picking yourself up and talking yourself through it and making it one day at a time. In this situation, courage means moving on and forcing myself to find happiness again. Courage means facing the future and accepting the different gifts to be found there, even though it’s hard to leave behind the gifts you had.

I wish you courage in life, and I hope you’ll do the same for me.

15 thoughts on “The Boomerang Keeps Going Around

  1. sjmaas says:

    I love you, and I love this post! I think you’re one of the most courageous people I know–the fact that you wrote this post shows that. :)

    And I’m SO glad you enjoyed A FARAWAY LAND (unless the manuscript you mentioned was someone else’s, lol…)!

  2. secretdoorways says:

    I don’t think we’re ever TRULY courageous. In a way, I think we’re always afraid of what were are and what we face. It’s what we do about the fear that truly shows how courageous we are. I think you’re plenty courageous. And just in case? God’s there to lend you an extra dollop :) *hugs!*

  3. wolfgirl145 says:

    I hope this makes sense (? :S) and doesnt offend….

    I like the way you distinguished bravery and courage; and I think circumstances lend us the ability to decide to step up to the plate, accept the consequences of an action and do the action anyway (thus employing courage without necessarily being aware of it). In writing an epic trilogy, you have employed courage, in sending it to agents courage again has been used.
    I think you have courage :) and I am certain life will give gifts- and because they *will* be different, because you are aware of the difference they will be special.

  4. aekubo says:

    I think it`s courageous of you to post this article. Being honest is very courageous, and I think your blog is one of the most honest out there.

    And I think it`s okay to be afraid. We`re all human, so we have fears. :)

  5. Anonymous says:

    I’m terrible at condolences, so I will just say that I wish you all the best. Though I haven’t known you very long, I already see that you’re such a sweet, wonderful person with enough courage to face whatever life hands you.


  6. meaganspooner says:

    You are fabulous, and I can’t wait to meet you in person. I’m so sorry that things are so tough for you right now, but from what I’ve seen you have a tremendous amount of grace under pressure and I know you’re going to come through it, even with just the short time I’ve known you.

    Project Santa Barbara is only a month away. You and I are going to have such a great time, I know it. If nothing else, we can just stand next to each other and loom. ;)

  7. lalaith7 says:

    I think if nothing else all the things you’ve already gone through this year have made you more courageous than you know. You are officially awesome Savannah.

  8. randomlaughter says:

    I’ve had a lot of rough patches in my life, and I can honestly say that courage is something you gather over time. I don’t think anyone is born with it. It’s hard to find a lot of times, but dig deep, and you’ll realize it’s there. I think the important thing to remember is to just keep going, even on those days where you’d rather not. That, in itself, takes courage, so it seems to me you’ve already got it, despite thinking you may not.

    We may not know each other well yet, but from what I do know, I’d say you’re doing pretty incredible, all things considered. *hugs* Stay strong, Savannah ♥

  9. cristinaguarino says:

    Ah Savannah, I love your inspirational/philosophical stories! It sounds like we’d definitely get along in person … I’m the same way. :) I love doing daredevil stuff … to the point where I can be considered stupid sometimes. But I like to think I still have a head on my shoulders!

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