It’s been 2 months. I’m not on Twitter or Facebook, really. I’m definitely not at this blog, though I have been here more than a handful of times.
So where am I?
I’m at the local park every day with my dog:
I’m at the library where I finally got a membership, I’m at my parents house providing emotional support as my younger sister moved to Florida, I’m at my job where my company and career continue to accelerate forward. And I am in my house, where I rennovated the living room AND my office! :-)
Before (when Kat and Susan came to visit me in December I was embarrassed by the condition of my house pre-renovation):
After!! :D Oh, and the length of my dog’s hair fluctuates because I’ve shaved her several times over this summer. She is like a sheep under there, I swear!
Pinterest was a HUGE help through that project. You can see all the stuff I’ve created and story boards for my books here! I am beyond in love with my teal living room; every time I’m in there I happy sigh. It’s so light and pleasant now. I have more photos of the process on my FB here in case you’re a DIY amateur enthusiast like me.
I also took my office from this:
To this. With tons more to come.
So. There is definitely something to be sad for cleanliness and organization. I feel that Chris and I have moved towards a tidier state of being gradually over the past 2 years; now I do maintenance cleaning every night and it’s so refreshing. I’m proud of my house and my lifestyle and definitely feel the mental effects of that.
Which brings me to writing.
Yeah these pictures are nice, but what I’m really accountable to you for is the progress of my stories and my self-assigned stewardship of the writing community. I have not been such a good steward.
Since leaving Pub Crawl I feel like I’ve gone into writing hibernation. I have separated myself from the communities and networks that used to be a mainstay of my daily life. I was thinking about this article a lot, and I found myself actually living it. So what does a life disconnected look like? You’ve seen half of it in the pictures above. The rest is a very internal world, one of book reading, journaling, and singing in my car as I think about plots. It is an attempted return to the self-contained universe I lived in during high school, when I was the most prolific and intoxicated with my work.
I wish I could post today and tell you about how much I’ve accomplished writing-wise, which is the only metric that truly counts. But the truth is that the past couple months have been more about mental and physical reorganization. Today is the first day where I felt everything click into some semblance of permanence. I have my proverbial ducks in a row and I feel ready to rejoin the writing world :-)
Does that sound vague and psycho-babbly? Hopefully you’re not too bored with me, yet. I am continually amazed how at my darkest moments my readers appear out of nowhere to lift me up and remind me what I’m working for. For all of you who responded to my update post about Nameless, thank you. For everyone who emailed about how my articles on LTWF still affect them, thank you. When I am bruised and discouraged you manage to be there with me, and the simple fact of your presence renews my faith.
I am now at a point where I must swallow a bitter pill to acknowledge that ACORAS in its first version was far inferior to the version I’m working on. Dare I be grateful to have not been published in my first round? ;-) Because, you see, my subconscious finally spat forth the pearl I can now recognize it’s been incubating since the start of the story over a year ago. You know that moment where the perfect explanation reveals itself, stepping into an empty space you didn’t realize existed until just now?
Yeah. I’ve had several of those with ACORAS. The plot lines are now thick and strong, and the characters even more layered. What I’ve been doing is more a complete rewrite than a revision, which explains why I’ve felt discouraged and overwhelmed. Everything expanded so suddenly and in multiple stages, but it’s finally calmed down now and I can dissect it and begin pinning it down. And when this story’s finally out there I promise I’ll explain so that all makes sense :-)
I have lots of thoughts to share with you about various writing stuff, but I’ve babbled enough for now, so here’s some stuff I’m enjoying lately, and I’ll talk to you all next week:
- Maggie Stiefvater’s livejournal. I seriously feel like I’ve gotten a surprise gift every time she updates. Maggie is a writer who gets it.
- A dissection of 50 Shades of Grey chapter by chapter. And oh, do I have thoughts on the Edward Cullen/Christian Grey phenomenon, from a cultural psychology standpoint AND a fan fiction/intellectual copyright perspective.
- Conspiracy theory on The Shining and fake moon landings. A quick perusal of Wikipedia’s article on fake moon landing conspiracies cures that paranoia right quick.